Poetry: “The Girl Lost”.

What to do when one cannot go back And fears to go forward for what is left behind? Do I take my punishment and die on this beat? It’s not supposed to be easy but I am off the chosen track There is no beginning and this might be my end defined   What have…

Vacation!

I’m taking a vacation from my hectic lifestyle in the woods 😏. So I flew to a faraway land for a few days! It’s spring over here and they certainly do not have any snow so I’m happy!  It’s always good to visit the family…. until it is not. I always forget how loud they actually are! So far…

The Stories: Part 22.

Fact number 22: My favorite car is a jaguar. I would like one in purple some day. Okay, I have a lot of specifications when it comes to my Jaguar…. It should indeed be purple and the interior should be bright yellow like the sun! When I was young and crazy I was going to…

The Stories: Part 21.

Fact number 21: Coffee. I need coffee. But honestly who doesn’t?? A hot cup full of black goodness about 8-10 times a day. Who needs food when you can have coffee! Don’t trust a person that doesn’t drink coffee. They think too much with a clear mind. Tea drinkers? –> what the hell! “Drink Coffee!…

A song for my mood.

I will now rock on to Sias I’m Alive. Because I am alive. I now dance half naked and sing at the top of my lungs in this home which is mine. For this is my life. I will do-think-act-feel-love-dance-hate-touch-LIVE as I please. I will be me. I now not know who else to be….

Poetry: “I Love You”.

I love you Are just some empty words Or completely full of meaning Used to control Punished with loving pretense Said with endless judgement I love you… Empty words full of wrong You’re still here Telling me words I’ve waited for years   I long to be loved the way I deserve to be loved…

Poetry: “The Broken Trance”.

Sexual Content. I watch you from across the room You seem so focused on everything else As my mind fills with want and lust And between my legs my pussy swells   I watch you sitting there as you simply enjoy life This dream is real as my hands out of control slip down my pants I…

Asshole cats!

I’m gonna get me one of these asshole cats one day. I’m gonna name it Ben. Or Olive!! That’s a good cat name. I like cats, they are such funny animals. I’ve had 3 cats in my life… one was a moody sob, then there was Poezebeest (which translated straight from Dutch would be kittybeast… )…

Strange dreams last night.

I had three very specific dreams last night… In the first one I was a guy… (that is just so strange but I am afraid to look up what that could mean in dream world, to regularly dream that one is a guy…..) So, I was a guy! And a handsome one, even if I…

The Stories: Part 20.

Fact number 20: I have a lot of fantasies….. Ya…. 🙂 I do indeed. I’m not just talking sexual though. I have a wild and crazy imagination. Everything from flying (there is a specific technique…. you need to position your body as if you were going to sit down and then you hold your arms…

Poetry: “The Ghost I See”.

I am once again staring out the window Snow falling from the skies This winter gloom keeps beating me down As my tears drop from my eyes   Where is the sun. Where are my rainbows? They seem to have said goodbye I don’t deserve anything other than the snow The anguish takes hold and…

Poetry: “And Yet I Breathe”.

Sitting here staring out the window There is a life Somewhere out there I can see it I can smell it But I can’t touch it I long to be loved The way I deserve to be loved I long for passion The way passion was meant to be I long for touch The way…