I think I might have actually beaten this depression… dare I say that I am hopeful?
I have had a few good days in a row now! Well, today is a day of mixed feelings but it is still early and I have decided it will be mainly good. It’s my friends birthday toady! So shoutout to my friend who will never read this blog; Happy Birthday!! She has been my friend since I was ten years old….. she knows most of my secrets.
But I am still not eating like normal.
As I am writing this, I have not eaten anything in 22 hours. And I do not know why. I do get hungry at times… but if ya wait long enough, it passes 🙂 Or drink enough water… or take some vitamins. Drink more coffee….. I understand I can not keep doing this.
I use to be normal.
But now that this depression seems to have passed, I am more sure than ever…. I do not want to be here. I want to leave. Where does one find the courage to do so? With all of the shit you can find on ebay, no one seems to sell some courage.
I am not staying. And people can no longer make me stay. But that of course brings me to this question; so where should I go?
~ Becca ~