I do indeed feel it.
This closing of a chapter
It does not leave me without hurt
It fuels all the its that were there before
I do indeed feel it!
I might be hungry
I might be empty
But not of that
Not of what was said which lingers in my mind
There were hands, there was touching
I do feel it.
On top of the hunger there is now a different pain
My heart is not empty
My heart is not black as coal
It is the emptiness beyond it that is
Not what was said and done
I feel emotions and I feel pain
To say I do not feel, to call me cold
Is like telling me to never eat again
I have walls that go up into the sky so high
But no wall is unbreakable
There were cracks
There are cracks
It is flooding my world
At the same time it is letting in the sun
And this sun, it shines on me
As I sit here hungry and in pain
So do I fix this wall?
Or do I enjoy the sun?
I now know I can feel.
Beyond the emptiness and the hunger
I will enjoy the sun
~ Becca ~