I find it absolutely terrifying
that just some simple words,
which are just some simple letters
can cut through me like a sword
and make me scream
and cry out in gut-wrenching pain.
My heart so broken
it makes me want to tear off my flesh
to hide the pain I feel inside.
I look beyond the pain
but there is nothing.
Emptiness as far as the mind can see
which fuels my heart ache.
So I focus on the emptiness of hunger.
Of not eating.
It is an emptiness I can control.
It makes more sense to me
than the emptiness of the great beyond.
So is this emptiness real, or is it an illusion?
Is it my mind going insane?
I am losing my mind.
I scream up to the skies: I am losing my mind!
Dear God, I am losing my mind……
~ Becca ~