I’m in my new world, hanging from reality by a piece of string
My fantasies are not healthy
I crave after what this new world can bring.
I run inside my head more often than not
I’m losing the battle
I am disappearing from reality, a lot.
Soon I won’t be able to return
I will live there forever and ever
It won’t make me better… when will I learn?
This burden, this struggle, this pain
My new world does not give me this
But aren’t the people that live inside their heads insane?
My new world is about him and him alone
It maybe love, but it’s also nothing
It’s made up, it’s as cold as a stone.
It’s endless lovemaking, me and him in my head so beautiful
He loves me the way I want to be loved
Can not come back from that, too big of a struggle.
I wake up and stare at reality with empty eyes
There is nothing there
I wake up and find even more lies.
So I will keep my eyes shut and I’ll stay here
Soon there will be no way in and no way out
This life is easier, it is more sincere.
It is exactly what I make of it
Anyone can live, die and love
But I also know that it is a bottomless pit.
I fall and fall and fall and no one hears my cries
But it’s okay, I am ready to end this pain
Therefor my reality is what I sacrifice.
~ Rebecca ~