48 new facts about me.

That is 100 facts in total when combined with 52 facts about me. And I am NOT giving you ANY more than that! But every fact has a story connected to it, some short, some long, some comical and some tragic. When you combine all of these stories, there is where you will find me….

Poetry: ‘I will make it up to you’.

Did you read the poem under the post ‘Screw it’? It ends with the phrase ‘Now tell me what you would do to me’. While trying to write a sequel to that, I realized I have no idea what a man would do as revenge and what he would do to me…. I think it…

I think it is officially classified as a depression now.

So close… so freakin close, I almost got away with it. I am not in a depression, I can just see it nearby. Depression has now made contact with me…. Or I have made contact with depression, I don’t know. I feel its hand on my shoulder. I see its fingers. If it weren’t so…

Poetry: ‘Lust’.

Oh to feel the sweet lips of a man on my body It’s been so long, it’s been so long But why would anybody want me   I’ve been used and abused and I’ve been broken many times more Why would he see me? My scars are so visible, some are still sore   I…

Poetry: ‘Hello Death’.

I see Death creeping towards me Its self-confidence and strength is admirable It is bigger than I could ever be   Its awesome power will crumble my deepest inner foundation I know it will hurt but I don’t care That deep is my desperation   Desperate to end this endless sorrow Jealous of what life…

We might be messed up but at least we are intelligent!

I just read an article in the Swedish newspaper saying that anxiety, excessive drinking, extreme worrying and being funny are clear signs of high intelligence. I have not met a single blogger that isn’t at least one of these things. So fellow bloggers, we might be fucked – but at least we are classified as…

This is where I live & depression has made contact.

You see the cabin in the first picture? That is where I live, in a village with a population of  53 including myself. In my humble opinion, that is 52 people too many! I tried to ask people to move but people DO NOT respond to that well….. I can now feel depressions touch on…

52 facts about me.

 Facts about me. The good, the bad and the ridiculous.    1.       My favorite food is pizza with the toppings salami, kebab, tomatoes, feta cheese and béarnaise sauce.  2.       I am addicted to nose-spray  3.       I am an extremely stingy person and do not like to spend money – at all.  4.       I have two…

Ode to a snowmobile.

(probably not for young people) ‘Ode to a Snowmobile’ I have a powerful machine between my legs The vibrating of the engine, I feel all over my body It roars and away we go It takes me into the wild, so longingly I tighten my thighs to focus the touch I push some more and…

Goals.

I have some goals for the coming year: – Start painting again. Like for real. I know I am a good painter. – Make more of an effort with my jewelry. – Get better at photography. – Get fit. – Fuck. As much as possible. No sorry – make love. – Tell my family the…

Clean. Everything is clean.

Our snow is back! Yeah.  We got at least 30 cm during the night and it is suppose to snow all day today. My mood, my thoughts are always more positive when it has snowed. You know how the snow always covers all the crap that is underneath? I think it does that with my…

Poetry: ‘Screw it’.

I have been contemplating for a while now if I should post this poem or not. But do you know what? I did not start this blog to have more eggshells to walk on, I have real life for that. You might ask, ‘but why post explicit sexual poetry’… you are asking the wrong question….